20 8 / 2014
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18 8 / 2014
11 8 / 2014
My donor is officially sold out.
I have one vial left in storage for IVF and that’s it. I could put out a search for more but I don’t think I’ll do that unless IVF fails and I become desperate. For right now, he’s sold out and there’s no chance of that changing.
I’m kinda sad about it mostly because that’s the end of that and there is a possibility that I would have to go through the donor search again (if all else fails) and that’s really not something I want to do again. I knew it was coming. Just sucks that it’s here now.
02 8 / 2014
Today has been key in making me want to hurry up and get out of here.
When I think about needing to pay bills, I want to chunk everything and walk off. I don’t have an issue with paying bills or responsibilities but I do have a problem with these that I don’t actually want. This is just not for me.
I had to pay something today and didn’t get it together in time. I called and can take care of it tomorrow but still. Pisses me off to not get things done when I plan them. There is some other bits involved but I can’t wait to not have to deal with this anymore.
Today has made me crabby but we went out to the park and hung out with aunt K for a long while. J had such a good time. He told me just now that he’s tired and he’s now relaxing in his chair. I love it when he’s tired this time of night. Otherwise he’ll stay up forever!
Just want time to pass so we can go!
02 8 / 2014
With the idea of travel. I am still planning it and hoping to get going. I have lists and links and papers full of information to use to go, to do, to buy. I am really planning it. So far I haven’t managed to get the house cleared out. We have a ton of clothing that I’m trying to get rid of this weekend at least. That will clear up space and my mind.
J is excited to go somewhere. I see him every day wanting to go do something. I feel bad that we’re in the house more often than not. I’d like for him to be outside doing things with other children or exploring and learning. He has a personality that being in the house for too long can get to him. It’s the opposite for me. I can be home all day but he needs to be doing something so that’s the goal. To get my baby out doing something.
I am so anxious to go!